Day 3

So sorry for the lack of posting! I've spent the majority of my time resting and sleeping. I am still somewhat sore and this morning I'm a little nauseous. Like I barely got a bagel down and I'm still not sure it's staying there. I've lost 3 lbs since we got home which is great. Definitely need to get the extra fluid out. Still drinking Gatorade and Chicken broth. Since I've never had a normal fresh cycle I have no idea if this is how most girls are feeling right now or if I'm mildly hyperstimmed. Honestly I don't think I've ever felt this good after a fresh cycle, really excited for a check to see what's going on in there! No doubt I'm sore but I think with retrieving 40 eggs that was to be expected, I'd imagine my ovaries are a little irritated and inflamed. Today is day 3 and if they do a transfer it would be on day 5 or 6, since I'm writing this in the morning and will update after I get stats on our embies I technically have 2 1/2 days to get the extra fluid out. I truly believe your prayers are helping so please keep them coming! Yesterday I was feeling particularly uncomfortable, I did the only thing I knew to do which was to pray and within a few minutes I was excreting liquid like a sieve. So back to the hyperstimming, I've definitely been severe and I would imagine I may have been moderate but I've never been "mild". Have I mentioned how AWESOME this Dr is? Seriously I love her!! Knowing our past history I was reluctant to trust her, but she truly has made a difference!! I would highly recommend her to any and everyone. Her bedside manor is second to none, she was patient, she explained things in terms we could understand, she was honest and up front, she is AMAZING!! I was reluctant to start with a new Dr on our last covered cycle but I'm so glad we did! So for those only reading the blog and not following on Facebook, we had 40 eggs retrieved, 20 were mature, 13 fertilized normally and 4 were being watched - they weren't good but weren't bad either. UPDATE: So I just spoke to our nurse for a Day 3 report and a transfer is not going to happen, apparently there is fluid in my lining which isn't good and if we were to transfer the hyperstimming would only get worse. Disappointing news for sure but I trust our Dr & staff. On a positive note our embies are growing nicely. We want them to be 6-10 cells at this point, Grade 1 means they have no fragmentation and Grade 2 means they are fragmented but there really isn't any difference in the success rates of these two. Our Embies - we don't know the gender the he/she/it is just hypothetical... (2) 11 cell grade 2 - these guys are growing a little quick but not too bad at this point (2) 4 cell gr 2 - these guys are a little slow but will still be watched (1) 6 cell grade 2 - this one is right where we want it (3) 7 cell grade 2 - these are good (1) 8 cell grade 1 and (3) 8 cell grade 2 - these are all good (1) 9 cell grade 2 - this one is good too! So 13 at this point is still really good, but the next 48 hours is where the "seperation" occurs. By day 5 we will probably have significantly fewer. And it's pretty certain all embryo's that are left will be frozen. While disappointing I have to remind myself that B was a day 5 frozen blast. So much emotion goes into these cycles and it's not going as "planned" so it feels like another loss. Yes in August we can probably do a FET, but for 2 more months I'm stuck in this limbo that feels like it will never end. I've been in this limbo for 2 years while we got moved and settled and I'm thankful that we weren't trying to do all of that while I was pregnant or with a new baby but it still sucks! Our Dr was completely honest and told us after retrieval before we left that she had no intention of transferring right now, but I still held on to hope that things would change and my body would be ok with a transfer. Feeling much better this time also gave me a false hope. This journey is such a roller coaster, today it begins its descent. P.S. even though this isn't going as planned I still don't regret our decision to use a different Dr. I still have the utmost respect for her and her treatment plan for us. P.P.S. Yes I know God's timing isn't always ours, there will be better days ahead, things will be ok, I get that but it's still disappointing. Remember that nursery that was being planned? The plans that needed to be put on hold until we knew if we were pregnant? All of the things that were waiting to see how this went? Well they are also put on hold for 2-3 more months. Do I regret putting everything I have into this cycle? ABSOLUTELY not. Will I probably cry for a couple days? Yep, it's part of the process, just how I roll.